Haha, WTF. It's just this random string of thoughts that I wanted to share with some of you.
GOD DAMN THIS WORLD =)) I really feel like that my life is turning into a book. (Okay, I can already imagine what Mrs. Ben would say about this entry. Hahahaha. "What?! Ang buhay mo naging libro? Paano nangyari yun?" OKAY, di ko gets. :)) Hahahaha.)
Movin' on...
Okay. I don't always share about this topic since I like to keep this to myself.
HOY, TO ALL OF YOU WHO ARE READING THIS, I EXPECT THAT NOTHING WILL GET OUT. Everything you find out here will remain here, in this private blog. I chose you because I trust you. :D
**BABALA: In case of nausea, maghanda ng isang plastic bag. Yung colored, wag see-thru. Baka masuka kayo sa ka-corny-han.**
NOTE: I have a feeling that this is going to be a long entry. :D
PUTA MAGTATAGALOG NA NGA LANG AKO.
Nung pauwi kami, nasa kotse ako, nagde-daydream as usual. Hobby ko yan eh. Hay, at syempre, nag-linger ang thoughts ko sa mga pangyayari ngayon araw na NAPAKASAYA.
Wahaha. After THREE EXCRUCIATING WEEKS...
Nagkasama kami ng pinaka-importanteng tao sa buhay ko. XD Third most important. Kasi una si God. Pangalawa pamilya ko :D Pang-apat lang kayo >:) =))
Haha. I don't wanna mention his name, kilala niyo na yun. Siya si John. HAHA TANGINA ANG LABO KO =))
Okay. As I was saying, ayun, grabe ang saya ko talaga!!! XD Alam niyo ba yun. PARANG YUNG FEELING NI BELLA NUNG NAGKITA NA ULIT SILA NI EDWARD NUNG NEW MOON!!! Takte talaga, para akong batang binigyan ng isang trak ng kendi. Para akong rugby boy na nanalo ng isang sako ng mariwana. Para akong elepanteng nakipagkaibigan sa daga. Basta ang saya talaga. XDDDD
Tapos grabe ang bango niya. XD Hahahaha. Takteeee. Para talaga akong Bella na small version kasi pandak ako. Takte takte takteeee. Obsessed :)) Hahaha. Tapos siya si Edward, kahit na yung ngipin niya ay mas mukhang pang-crocodile kaysa pang-vampire =)) May pangil pa rin naman eh, kaya okay lang :))
RAWR. Nung katabi ko siya habang pinapanood namin yung video na sumasayaw siya ng "Makulay Ang Buhay" (MUKHANG GAGO. SWEAR. Who wants to see? I'll give you a link.), grabe, wala lang. Para talaga kaming Edward-Bella takte. Tapos iniisip ko nun--
"Damn, do I really deserve this person? He's waaay too perfect, besides the fact that he has weird teeth. pero braces lang naman katapat niyan eh! Apart from that small flaw, he's perfect. GOD MUST BE SHITTING ME."
GRABEEE! XD He has stalkers, for crying out loud, pati nga mga bading dito samin hinahabol siya!!! Fuck. May tumawag pa nga sa bahay nila dati na bading na niyaya siyang makipag-phone sex o____o Obviously, he declined. :)) I THINK. JOKE, really, he did decline the "offer". =)) Tapos sobrang bait niya. I don't know if I'm the only one who thinks that way 'cause he might be treating me differently. :) Pwede siyang magpari, although I forbid him to do so. :)) He loves his family, he respects my parents, he tries to make friends with MY friends (ehem beakman, ehem kim :D), he is SORT OF religious :)) and so much more. You'd probably get bored if I continued on :))
He plays basketball. Okay, that's one of the best parts :D ANG HOT NIYA MAGLARO. O baka ako lang nag-iisip nun kasi baliw na baliw ako sa kanya =)) Hahahaha. Daya nga eh, when I'm not around, nagta-topless siya. Pero pag andun ako, wala na. Kahit buhok niya sa kilikili di mo makikita. :|
Second best part is... he freaking looks like Harry Potter =)) my all-time crush. Wow, grabe, now I feel like the God-must-be-shitting-me part is so true. I'm so lucky that I landed on this one.
THE BEST, BEST PART IS...
I'm mad about him, and, as others have said, he's mad about me. :)
"Mad" as in literally mad that I would go insane for the rest of my life if he were to find someone else. :( "Mad" as in literally mad that he would shoot himself in front of my house if I ever decided on leaving him. MAD MAD MAD. And that totally explains the whole Edward-Bella thing right there. :P I once thought of them as psychos, but now I totally understand them, and have become one of them :)) Hahaha.
God damn it, nakakasuka isipin, pero masaya rin at nakakalungkot dahil nga feel ko hindi ako deserving. :D
I guess that's how God works... Just when you feel like you're the shittiest person in the world, He suddenly goes and pairs you up with someone who makes you feel like you're the shittiest person in the GALAXY. Great, I'm like goat poop (yung mukhang raisinets) that turned into a fresh heap of... (ano bang malaking animal? Ah!) King Kong's shit.
I guess that's how love works, too. They always say that it's not love if it doesn't hurt. Okay, now it hurts a lot, so this has to be love. It has totally wounded my ego, but the weird thing is... I DON'T CARE. Just as long as I can be with this person. Grabe, I don't care how undeserving I am or how some people think that I'm waaaaaaay too ugly for this guy (sabi nung ibang stalkers niya :|), they'll all just have to face the fact that he's MINE. >:D Wow, did I just say that?! Hahahaha. FUCK OFF, BITCHES, THIS ONE'S TAKEN! XD not officially, 'cause we're not "together". He's not even courting me yet, 'cause I don't want him to :)) but many people already think we're an item in our neighborhood. I guess that's a good thing... or not. WHO CARES?!
I feel like I'm ready to die already. I have anything and everything I could ever wish for, right here. :) Siguro pag nawala siya... EWAN. It would be like... Kim without Gino. Beakman without Caution/Kaipo/Pupus. Aly without Bill. Milaine without ... HAHA. Most of all... PAULA WITHOUT PUPUS.
OMG. Tinext niya ko. @-) Okay, wait a sec... Haha. He's sad 'cause my mom set a date for when he would be allowed to make ligaw. Mom said ONLY after I finish college. FUCK, MEDICINE KUKUNIN KO =)) Poor John :) Guess he'll have to wait. He says he can. I trust him. :>
Grabe, feel ko talaga parang kami na. Ganito siguro yung feeling ng mga taong naglilive-in. BAKIT PA BA KELANGAN MAGPAKASAL?! ANO PA BANG PAGKAKAIBA NUN? Okay, I actually asked him that kasi ang kulit niya gusto na kong ligawan :| Kakasuka. Sabi niya, kaya daw kelangan official para aprub ang lahat sa kung anong meron kayo at malaya na kayong gawin lahat ng gusto niyo provided na aprub din si God sa gagawin niyo :D Waaah, so cute, the way he said this. Not the exact words though.
Ending point, I am in love. <3 IRREVOCABLY in love. Haha, you probably know where I came up with that. Ang labo na ng blog ko.
Okay, I'm sleepy. AND I'M STARTING TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE TRYING YOUR BEST NOT TO PUKE ON THE MONITOR =)) I'll give it a rest. Haha, masyado lang akong na-agitate sa mga thoughts ko. G'night. Thanks for bearing with me. I just had to share my shitty-ness with somebody else.:D